Little things turns out into big things

Porque nós abrimos mão de tanta coisa em nossa vida?

Porque deixamos nosso coração de lado?

Eu só gostaria de saber se isso é para que os outros não se machuquem, ou se é para que nós não acabemos machucados, ou se é para não vermos a outra pessoa machucada, ou por medo deperder algo, ou de algo dar errado.

Ou de aquilo não ser realmente verdadeiro, ou de quebrarmos a cara, ou das consequências serem maiores que a dor de deixamo-nos de lado, teremos nós ter que esperar pelo irreversível chegar para dar a cara a tapa para tomar o risco?

Ou descobriremos que a dor de nos deixar de lado pode ser menor que quebrar a cara?

Bom, deixando minhas palavras de meia pataca de lado, mais uma vez, agora algo realmente bom:

"History is largely told as a cronicle of great people

doing great things. But, for most of us, life is not made

up of big moments. It is made of the small moments.

And at every small choice, with every small decision, we

are defining ourselves.

Are we honest?

Are we faithful?

Are we proud of ourselves, or are we disapointed by who

we've become?

Life rarely turns out the way we planed. The unexpected

happens and it surprises us with new, exciting

possibilities.

But sooner or later, reality hits you in the face.

My mother never imagined having to start over as a single

mother with two grown kids.

But when the unimaginable happened, she adepted. She

found strenght. She moved on.

And I hope that when my life doesn't go as I've planned,

which it's certainly won't,I can handle myself with the

same grace and strenght that my mother has thought me.

She may not be a olimpic athlete, or a world leader, but

my mom is definetly my hero."

Well, I have to say that this speech really inspired me.

Today I am so happy beacuse I got good points at Unesp's Vestibular and that was one of the most important things of my life right now! I was so down, and not putting faith on myself that I thought I would never be able to make my dream come true. But, now, I think that might be able. Now I am kind of believing myself.

I am proud of myself.

And that is what really matters.

My mom is the reason of most of shits that happens in my life, but she is as well, my hero.

Nobody has no idea how much her words about being happy with my vestibular were one of the best things in my day! It really gave me a up!

But at the begining I was saying about our fears in ourselves, feelings and in other people. Well, I wasn't talking about my mom or even me.

This is one of the things no one will never know or understand, just like where I would go if I could to cool off my mind.

But while this can't happen I am ok with all my safe harbors,that also most of people don't get, but everybody knows.

As I use to say in everything I write, don't try to understand me, you'll never get my point, I'm just saying.

Câmbio, desligo.

Mission complete.

Mayã Gonzalez.